I have been wanting to write this post for a while, and perhaps it would have been more appropriate to write it a year and a half a go when I started the blog. But, hindsight is a wonderful thing and at the time of starting this blog I was inexperienced in the realms of healthy living and most probably not in the right frame of mind in terms of my own body image and relationship with food to project my own thoughts on the matter with others.
Although now things have changed somewhat…
As the tag line suggests I was “on a quest for that healthy balance…” Trying to find that healthy weight that my body was happy with and also trying to understand my relationship with food, what food means to me and how I could be kind to my body by providing it with nourishing and healthy food without compromising on taste and without wanting to be restrictive either.
Through blogging I have felt inspired, motivated and impassioned by other bloggers and their stories, heart felt topics and creativity of delicious recipes. Along this journey I have nurtured a love of a lifestyle of food which is full in abundance of fresh vegetables, fruit, legumes and whole grains and free from refined sugars, trans fats, additives and processed products. Due to this I have never better, in fact I would go as far as saying that this is the best that I have ever felt in ages. My skin is clear and I rarely break out even when it’s that time of the month, my hair and nails are both healthy and I am sleeping really well too. All of this I’m putting down to the food that I’m eating. Of course, this way of eating doesn’t suit everyone, but it is certainly working for me.
Of course there are always times where I over eat, have foods that are significantly more calorific, have a carb loading day, dip into the nut butter jar and eat too much dark chocolate. I am human after all and really couldn’t imagine a life without dark chocolate and nut butters (yum!), but with me moderation and balance has always been central to my healthy living ethos. When I do feel that I have has a dose of too much sugar or carbs etc. I do like to balance things out a few days after and eat more basic and lighter meals. Take the good with the bad, Ying and Yang…it seems to me other than money it is balance is what makes the world go around too.
Next month will mark a year since I stopped eating meat. I’m not a vegetarian, but prefer not to eat meat and occasionally will eat fish. I’m also not vegan. However, the past 8 months or so I have rarely eaten any fish and well dairy products have gone straight out of the window. I’m not a huge lover of dairy any way, so it’s really no big deal. I much prefer the taste of soy yoghurt and non-dairy milk and I go through phases of eating white cheeses such as feta, helium and goat’s cheese. However, until recently the cheese like the fish has also been pushed to the side lines.
To some extent I feel that I have at times succumbed to blog pressure. Sometimes a sense of guilt will wash over me as I wonder “what would my readers think?” I would hate to think that I was letting anyone down if ate a slice of cake or some cookies because I love cake, especially cupcakes. I’ve documented my past eating habits and my relationship with food in a previous post, which you can read here if you missed it. After making so much progress on changing the way I think about food and portion size at one point a few months ago I thought I was slipping back into my old habits again-not necessarily in limiting what I eat but some of my old fears about food had crept back into my mind. And I know that I never want to go back there again.
I think it’s terrible that young girls and women who do not have eating disorders still suffer from issues with their body image as a result of peer pressure or media pressure. In today’s society we definitely pay far too much attention to size and numbers. Over the years and on my own journey I have come to realise that numbers on a scale do not define who I am. The smaller the number does not make be a better person by no mean feat. What defines me is what is in my heart and my soul. A few digits pale into significance! They will not make me successful in the future. The way I look to others becomes insignificant if they are not taking an objective viewpoint as they should. But, what will me make successful in the future in both my working and family life is defeating my insecurities in the present. Dealing with them and locking them away, never to be seen again.
It is such an easy thing to say but very hard to do, I know. But, I am almost there with a few more tweaks to iron out. Of course I have those days when I think I look rough, drab and down right crappy, but I think we all have those days every now and then. I think sometimes that we are given days such as these to help remind us of everything that is good in our lives. When you have are having a rubbish day and feeling sown in the dumps there is nothing more uplifting than thinking about the people and things you love to make you smile.
Going forwards I will stop being so restrictive with myself. I’m not going to go on a rampage in the fridge or anything, but be sure to include fish and a little cheese when I fancy it in my meals without feeling guilty. I don’t think a little bit of what you fancy doesn’t do you any harm what so ever. So now on I will be truly encompassing the name behind my blog and continue to pursue that healthy balance.
What is the story behind the name of your blog? If you started to write your own blog what would you call it and why?
Have you ever succumbed to blog pressure in any shape or form?